slow.

kinetic

                   I reach for a cigarette
                   a bowl
                   a pill.
why not take this energy on an empty stomach.
swallow it whole.
channel its fuel
sit and watch its color changing... sweat it out.

My future magazine. The BBQ.

visual comms magazine cover by yours truly. 

Synchronicity: was it me or the universe???

SYNCHRONICITY

April 24

It's Easter. I’m lying face down on my futon with my arms supporting my head and I feel warm, I’m in a half sleep and my body feels a little lucid like my energy is tapping into something else, like a current is going through it, my eyes are closed. I’m zoning into something and its weird because I feel the advancement of my knowledge, this information I am being given isn’t mechanically assimilating into my brain space, instead I’m feeling it vibrating into my body, similar to how it was on DMT, but in a drastically more subtle manner. My eyes are closed, but I’m not asleep, it’s dark but I see a faint milky grey outline of a geometrical box that extends back into the dark blur of whatever lies behind eyelids,

I’m lying here and I start to feel it extending outward deeper into the black and for some reason I get the feeling that this thing I’m seeing is supposed to symbolize my world. I smile warmly in this half sleep, I want to stay here forever, but something calls me up. 

AT THIS POINT THE SYNCHRONICITUS EVENTS begin to unfold...

happy easter! here, have a Bacon rose...

It's crazy to see someone get defensive where they think they're protecting themselves but all they're doing is blocking out love by acting indifferent.... And the crazy thing is it's so fucking familiar... Haha connecting other peolples dots is a trip..

BlakRoc - Ain't Nothing Like You (Hoochie Coo) (Mos Def, Jim Jones & The...

wow I can't believe I'm just getting this album now... so far behind the times it's retarded..

Album link below:

http://www.mediafire.com/?moni3infmde

pudding and bones

The benefits of not looking into the future… the positives of living in the now…and no where else, this was the first day of the rest of my life...

I was driving down the 101 last year on a Monday afternoon and I got in a car accident. I hit the center divider, on impact my reality cracked and it was as if time froze, I felt as though I was floating in slow motion -- three, two, one.... with a jolt I'm sucked back into reality and all I see is a wave of grey as my car 360's across the 5 lane freeway and rolls down the hill. Two men come running down the bank, through the trees there are flashing lights, and this man in a sweater vest is calling someone and I’m trying to get out of this fucking car.

My life flashed before my eyes, I didn’t have car insurance, the DMV had recently sent a letter saying my registration had been revoked because of that, I also had a letter from the district court saying my license was pending suspension, whatever that means, oh, and I was addicted to (****) or something like that. I wasn’t on it at the time of the accident, and I didn’t have anything associated with it in the car, but I had recently had my car searched by two Las Virgenes’ Sheriffs, they threatened me with a drug test saying that if (****) showed up in my system I could face two years in jail, UM fuck that I’m a college student (financial aid has a policy against felons) no matter how on drugs I was I still had my shit together, that was the problem….

Anyways so all these things are passing through my head as I’m trapped, the roof was smushed down over my body (looking back at pictures now, the car seemed much more spacious at the time) and all I could think was how the fuck am I going to get out of this, I wiggled in adrenaline bred panic trying to get myself free of the seatbelt but before I knew it  the two men had made it down the hill and the struggle became useless, I exhaled like a sinking sack of pudding and bone realizing I had been defeated. I had no choice but to relinquish control, It was at this point I realized I couldn’t move the right side of my body.

David Lynch: Transcendental Meditation, Consciousness and Creativity

"He whose happiness is within, whose contentment is within, whose light is all within, that yogi, being one with brahman attains eternal freedom in pure consciousness"

--The Bhagavad Gita--

Below is a link to download David Lynch's Catching the Big Fish on Audio book. He discusses his experience with transcendental meditation which he began in July 1973 at the T.M center in LA.

"It seemed so familiar, but also so new and powerful... it takes you to an ocean of pure consciousness, pure knowingness, but it's familiar, it's you, and right away a sense of happiness emerges, not a goofball happiness, but a thick beauty"

 If you're interested in tapping into your inner artist and further unlocking certain elements of creativity you may be unaware of, then I suggest you download this little piece of golden insight.

                                                        http://www.mediafire.com/?yitwlflt0ha

(At 101 minutes he starts talking about the perspective of the tortured artist and says despite popular belief,  the torture and pain that many believe to be their bloodline to inspiration, in fact DOES NOT HELP CREATIVITY, ultimate consciousness does)

I'm reading this amazing book called 

Seven Arrows: Hyemeyohsts Storm

I scanned this from the beginning of the book because I thought it was so beautiful. So far the book delves into the lives of the plains people, rituals, medicine wheels etc. It's rad, I can't wait to find out more.

Art show at ShutNYC-- and I'm so drunk I don't even think I can read...

When I was living in New York this past November, my friend Alicia and I went to our friend Mike's skate shop, Shut NYC, for a kind of art show that I guess was designed with a school charity in mind. It makes sense that the bag Mike gave me says Thanks for Learning with Us... And so inside this bag there were all these little goodies but I was way to sauced to care to investigate any further, at one point we got a hold of some side walk chalk and stumbled down the street marking arbitrarily. I forgot that I and a few undisclosed persons lifted some paint pens from a desk at the party,   I put one in side my jeans and didn't find out until the morning when it was lovingly smeared against my skin, we had been using sidewalk chalk all night, ha waste...

Chakra basics....

Chakra or energy center is a term used in Pranic healing, an ancient Hindu system of energy healing. “Prana” means life energy. “Aura” is another terminology traced to Pranic healing. Aura is a non-physical body that consists of energy, which exists along with our physical body. 

The aura that covers our body is said to have seven layers pertaining to the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual aspects of an individual as manifested by energy. Studying the color and thickness of auras can be an indication on the state of health of individuals. Seven colors are associated with aura and interpreted into seven personalities. These colors are all present in an individual but one or two are more pronounced. Click Read More to see a chart of the attributes, colors and affirmations for particular chakra.

Charles Bukowski interview

--What is your definition of love?

Love?

Is kind of like,

you know,

when you see a fog in the morning

when you wake up

before the sun comes out

It's just there a little while

And then it burns away

--Really?

Absolutely

Burns Away?

Yeah.

Quickly.

It's just...

Love is a fog that burns with the first daylight of reality...

Dimethyltryptamine DMT

]
\'Saturday 7 am.

I’m sitting alone on a skate ramp in the back of the heaven house watching the dew and mist enveloping the green valley below. 

I just smoked DMT.

At first I hit it and Jordan told me to hold it in so I did, and then I hit it again and at that I fell the fuck back…. 

In the beginning I saw all these little rows of shapes outlined in white coming at me against a purplish primarily pink backdrop; triangles, circles, stick like thing’s, too many to process. I fell on the bed,

graffiti helping humanity across the world....

Find out about the movements and how to

 donate by clicking the artists' name

VHIL'S crono project

Lisbon, Portugal

DAIN + RAE, Brooklyn

(Bedstuy do or die baby, Porkchop and the snoocher krim's old hood)

by Monsieur Qui

(Paris)

artists: Over Under + No Touching Ground
Brooklyn, NYC

continuation of a never ending compilation.2008

Portia Leigh

2008

Organic Quinoa casserole with basil, bell peppers, asparagus, onions and garlic

1 cup Organic white Quinoa
2 cups of water
1 vegetable broth concentrate packet (I used the one intended for 8oz of water even though I'm using 16 oz. so the flavor isn't so overbearing)

Rinse the Quinoa, add the water and heat until it begins to boil, and the vegetable broth, stir and reduce to a simmer for 10 to 15 minutes, or until the white ring forms around the grain.

Amazing weekend..

Photo by Niki Alsop

Happy full moon weekend everyone..

                    Yee Peng Festival Chiang Mai thailand

A rant about life, love and progress..

           It's a crazy thing thinking about the future. It's important to have goals, work creates function, it creates character; but, it's not up to us what happens really. If you notice the causal relationships in your life like I do in mine, then you'd probably see how there's no way we could have predicted the path of connected dots that has gotten us here.
           It's a crazy thing thinking about the progress our world has undergone in the last 200 years since the industrial revolution, the creation of cars and airplanes and trains and nukes and satellites, telephone wires, fucking space heaters and submarines; it's crazy to think about the 3 reactor debacle that's happening in Japan right now, potassium Iodide sold out at every store and clerks telling the panicked public they're not allowed to order more.
          If you didn't know, people are buying Potassium Iodide because it prevents our Thyroid from taking up the radiation from the surrounding environment, and essentially fucking up all of your metabolic functions. I heard the shit has been sold out for years though, so maybe it's not in account of the fact that it is said that the radiation around Japan will be greeting the West Coast, how timely depending  on the airflow.
        Everyone has a little less information than the next guy, it's likely we'll never really know what's going on until it happens. In my opinion it's better that way, it leaves less room for uncontrolled minds to run rampant. I'm not saying spit blindly into oncoming wind and hope it doesn't hit you.

                            Playing with photoshop  photo by Sean Richardson

go.with.it.2011.

Karma is the balance judging

But life is not court and you won’t win from grudging

So quick, run and tell the others

while your balance is off

it's not safe to be lovers

Just remember you can’t sue for the blues

So breathe deep, solidify your structure

This electric heart muse

needs the option to rupture

and with no attachments to lose

I’ve abandoned all clutter

I don't fear the bruise

because I'm fine in the gutter

in forgetting results

and releasing the cover,

We unlock deadbolts

and prepare to discover

the unpredictability of new paths

new lovers

and since no reality lasts

we can only be transient in others

So if its all destined to fade

why not open the shudders

let the sun in a bit

watch it burn down the shade

archiving old writings

Caution killed Desire and a Faded Glow

2008

If you ask her if she understands

you'll find she speaks loudest

with the touch of her hand

she gives what she needs

so they never demand

trading true feelings

for what everyone can stand

leaving the diary tragedies

to drown on the floor of the ocean

it makes for lighter travel

without the weight of devotion

so gone are the sunsets

once painted in pure emotion

while those energetic times told of progress

the aftermath rewound us in slow motion

These days she says I'm always alright

we're all trying to get swept up in obsession
without the burden of connection
but passionate love is a blinding sight
so whats wrong with a little deception

I can still feel if I squeeze pretty tight

so it's okay to just fall in line

step by step with all the other robots

racing by loves' maze of mines 

cause everybody has got somewhere to be

there just isn't the time

to pause, collect and see

that the castles they're building are so far from free

And this place punctures like an adrenaline injection

in this schema everyone has to keep moving

slowly losing direction

speeding by landscapes

with no space for intuitive heart selection

amiable boredom is bought and sold

while rings grab fingers and settle apprehension

they annihilate all question concerning future rejection

leaving true love to rest catatonic and mute

the concept of an elevating connection

becomes too foreign to mention

so when you meet her

she'll accept your version of fine

with words like your insides are as black as mine

and don't worry baby I've seen worse crimes

when you find her she'll go with the flow

bearing caution killed desire and a faded glow

she was born into a swamp of toxic blood lines

and since her 20 year escape from that fatal vine

she's abandoned emotional pursuit

with callous bred insouciance towards attachments that bind

structural stability has demolished cloud nine

Au Pairs "It's Obvious"

I don't think I'll ever stop liking this song..

ah I really want new boots...

ZIGI girl work boot

utilizing my photobooth

Banksy

                                                        maybe crossed with an anteater. 

morning thoughts

Worry sometimes
bring resentment
throwing waves
in the way of contentment
careful don't put faces on the passing
because there's true peace in detachment
when the ego is gone
and the self is absent.

chop.it.up..

"This remarkably elegant vintage motorcycle is actually a bit of a mongrel: it’s a Rudge ‘bitsa’ built by Jean-Claude Barrois. This bike has had a chequered life, starting out as a 1928 Soyer—a French brand that produced motorcycles between 1920 and 1935. Like many French makes of the time, Soyer used a variety of engines for their motorcycles, including 
JAP, Sturmey Archer and Chaise. This particular Soyer 07S had a JAP engine but the frame was wrecked, so Barrois built his own frame—and eventually replaced the JAP motor with the 500cc Rudge unit you see here. All unnecessary parts have been removed to make it lighter—including the front brake—and a new quarter-gallon tank has been added, along with a “suicide knee” gearshift." http://www.bikeexif.com/rudge-whitworth

cutie patootie..

Hannah Marshall

Peep Elkin

watercolor

Recently I bought a new watercolor set that I am very stoked on, and so I was perusing the internet for inspiration and I came across this fair lady, Stina Persson,