Thursday, April 28, 2011


                   I reach for a cigarette
                   a bowl
                   a pill.
why not take this energy on an empty stomach.
swallow it whole.
channel its fuel
sit and watch its color changing... sweat it out.

My future magazine. The BBQ.

visual comms magazine cover by yours truly. 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Synchronicity: was it me or the universe???

April 24

It's Easter. I’m lying face down on my futon with my arms supporting my head and I feel warm, I’m in a half sleep and my body feels a little lucid like my energy is tapping into something else, like a current is going through it, my eyes are closed. I’m zoning into something and its weird because I feel the advancement of my knowledge, this information I am being given isn’t mechanically assimilating into my brain space, instead I’m feeling it vibrating into my body, similar to how it was on DMT, but in a drastically more subtle manner. My eyes are closed, but I’m not asleep, it’s dark but I see a faint milky grey outline of a geometrical box that extends back into the dark blur of whatever lies behind eyelids,

I’m lying here and I start to feel it extending outward deeper into the black and for some reason I get the feeling that this thing I’m seeing is supposed to symbolize my world. I smile warmly in this half sleep, I want to stay here forever, but something calls me up. 


Sunday, April 24, 2011

happy easter! here, have a Bacon rose...

It's crazy to see someone get defensive where they think they're protecting themselves but all they're doing is blocking out love by acting indifferent.... And the crazy thing is it's so fucking familiar... Haha connecting other peolples dots is a trip..

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

pudding and bones

The benefits of not looking into the future… the positives of living in the now…and no where else, this was the first day of the rest of my life...

I was driving down the 101 last year on a Monday afternoon and I got in a car accident. I hit the center divider, on impact my reality cracked and it was as if time froze, I felt as though I was floating in slow motion -- three, two, one.... with a jolt I'm sucked back into reality and all I see is a wave of grey as my car 360's across the 5 lane freeway and rolls down the hill. Two men come running down the bank, through the trees there are flashing lights, and this man in a sweater vest is calling someone and I’m trying to get out of this fucking car.

My life flashed before my eyes, I didn’t have car insurance, the DMV had recently sent a letter saying my registration had been revoked because of that, I also had a letter from the district court saying my license was pending suspension, whatever that means, oh, and I was addicted to (****) or something like that. I wasn’t on it at the time of the accident, and I didn’t have anything associated with it in the car, but I had recently had my car searched by two Las Virgenes’ Sheriffs, they threatened me with a drug test saying that if (****) showed up in my system I could face two years in jail, UM fuck that I’m a college student (financial aid has a policy against felons) no matter how on drugs I was I still had my shit together, that was the problem….

Anyways so all these things are passing through my head as I’m trapped, the roof was smushed down over my body (looking back at pictures now, the car seemed much more spacious at the time) and all I could think was how the fuck am I going to get out of this, I wiggled in adrenaline bred panic trying to get myself free of the seatbelt but before I knew it  the two men had made it down the hill and the struggle became useless, I exhaled like a sinking sack of pudding and bone realizing I had been defeated. I had no choice but to relinquish control, It was at this point I realized I couldn’t move the right side of my body.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

David Lynch: Transcendental Meditation, Consciousness and Creativity

"He whose happiness is within, whose contentment is within, whose light is all within, that yogi, being one with brahman attains eternal freedom in pure consciousness"
--The Bhagavad Gita--

Below is a link to download David Lynch's Catching the Big Fish on Audio book. He discusses his experience with transcendental meditation which he began in July 1973 at the T.M center in LA.

"It seemed so familiar, but also so new and powerful... it takes you to an ocean of pure consciousness, pure knowingness, but it's familiar, it's you, and right away a sense of happiness emerges, not a goofball happiness, but a thick beauty"

 If you're interested in tapping into your inner artist and further unlocking certain elements of creativity you may be unaware of, then I suggest you download this little piece of golden insight.

(At 101 minutes he starts talking about the perspective of the tortured artist and says despite popular belief,  the torture and pain that many believe to be their bloodline to inspiration, in fact DOES NOT HELP CREATIVITY, ultimate consciousness does)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

I'm reading this amazing book called 
Seven Arrows: Hyemeyohsts Storm
I scanned this from the beginning of the book because I thought it was so beautiful. So far the book delves into the lives of the plains people, rituals, medicine wheels etc. It's rad, I can't wait to find out more.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Art show at ShutNYC-- and I'm so drunk I don't even think I can read...

When I was living in New York this past November, my friend Alicia and I went to our friend Mike's skate shop, Shut NYC, for a kind of art show that I guess was designed with a school charity in mind. It makes sense that the bag Mike gave me says Thanks for Learning with Us... And so inside this bag there were all these little goodies but I was way to sauced to care to investigate any further, at one point we got a hold of some side walk chalk and stumbled down the street marking arbitrarily. I forgot that I and a few undisclosed persons lifted some paint pens from a desk at the party,   I put one in side my jeans and didn't find out until the morning when it was lovingly smeared against my skin, we had been using sidewalk chalk all night, ha waste...

Friday, April 1, 2011

Chakra basics....

Chakra or energy center is a term used in Pranic healing, an ancient Hindu system of energy healing. “Prana” means life energy. “Aura” is another terminology traced to Pranic healing. Aura is a non-physical body that consists of energy, which exists along with our physical body. 

The aura that covers our body is said to have seven layers pertaining to the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual aspects of an individual as manifested by energy. Studying the color and thickness of auras can be an indication on the state of health of individuals. Seven colors are associated with aura and interpreted into seven personalities. These colors are all present in an individual but one or two are more pronounced. Click Read More to see a chart of the attributes, colors and affirmations for particular chakra.