re-edit of something I started on a darker day...

Beauty all around me

Flowers and their mothers

Like soul mates and lovers they grow side by side

Colors and warmth lay within my reach.....

But I’m an iceberg where nothing grows and nothing breathes

This ground I’ve paved so everyone leaves

And I don’t sleep

And I don’t eat

So I don’t have the energy to grieve

In this place of the darkest space

There are no stars there are no smiles

But if you look hard enough

You’ll find my scars stand trial

because underneath my skin

is where I hide all the treasures and sin

and I don’t even mean to do it

I’m like an involuntary chameleon,

I’m not afraid to do it,

I’m not ashamed to talk,

But I worry that the weight of speech

on this early dock

Will sink our ship

And land us both on rocks,

so for now my dear forgive me

if I don’t always shine the light

it’s just I’ve left a trail behind

 and I can’t always map it out right

it’s not that I don’t love you

I’ll come around, you’ll see,.

But for now I’m tired of the past

And in the present I am free