Words from the mouth are always too messy.

So I've come to the realization that I've learned how to be selfish, and in the worst possible way.. Not with possession's or money. but with my actual self. I'm cheap on the the amount of time I'm willing to give, and just give for giving-sake. that is like believing time is actually mine to give.. FUCKING RIDICULOUS.

I blame society... we're molded to see the individual pursuit of goals in a light that is far too bright. sometimes outshining the fact that we're put on earth to just live.

I have adopted a stubborn schedule. somewhere along the line, I started to see my life as MY life and shallowly forgot that I am in other peoples' lives too.


we can be giving with ourselves or we can not; that is seriously the only choice life gives us.


Ex; Out of the times that I've passed people broken down on the side of the road; I have pretty much always gotten the urge to turn around and help-- but I don't think I've ever followed through. -- It can't be possible that all of those times I was on my way to something so urgent, that I couldn't just check to see if there was something I could do.
so I drive, and assume they have a cell phone, or AAA.
I assume I am not needed.