"A basic tenet of mysticism is that reality as ordinarily perceived is indeed a distortion and that human suffering is the consequence of believing in that distorted view.."

                          --- Arthur J. Diekman M.D. author of The Observing Self: Mysticism and Psychotherapy

I think I'm getting a scooter....

It finally happened. My little jeepy jeep is no more.  I walked outside of my apartment this afternoon around 3 and had planned on going to whole foods to get a bottle of wine, a mango Kambucha and a chocolate chip cookie. That is, until I found out that my car was not where I left it. In my mind I retraced my steps from the night before. I got home at 4 am.. I probably shouldn't have been driving. I went to park my car on the street outside of my apartment and I remember being compelled to take it around to the back and park where I usually do. Figuring the less time I spend in the car the better,  I forfeited the effort of looping the block and crossing Ventura Blvd.

pudding and bones

The benefits of not looking into the future… the positives of living in the now…and no where else, this was the first day of the rest of my life...

I was driving down the 101 last year on a Monday afternoon and I got in a car accident. I hit the center divider, on impact my reality cracked and it was as if time froze, I felt as though I was floating in slow motion -- three, two, one.... with a jolt I'm sucked back into reality and all I see is a wave of grey as my car 360's across the 5 lane freeway and rolls down the hill. Two men come running down the bank, through the trees there are flashing lights, and this man in a sweater vest is calling someone and I’m trying to get out of this fucking car.

My life flashed before my eyes, I didn’t have car insurance, the DMV had recently sent a letter saying my registration had been revoked because of that, I also had a letter from the district court saying my license was pending suspension, whatever that means, oh, and I was addicted to (****) or something like that. I wasn’t on it at the time of the accident, and I didn’t have anything associated with it in the car, but I had recently had my car searched by two Las Virgenes’ Sheriffs, they threatened me with a drug test saying that if (****) showed up in my system I could face two years in jail, UM fuck that I’m a college student (financial aid has a policy against felons) no matter how on drugs I was I still had my shit together, that was the problem….

Anyways so all these things are passing through my head as I’m trapped, the roof was smushed down over my body (looking back at pictures now, the car seemed much more spacious at the time) and all I could think was how the fuck am I going to get out of this, I wiggled in adrenaline bred panic trying to get myself free of the seatbelt but before I knew it  the two men had made it down the hill and the struggle became useless, I exhaled like a sinking sack of pudding and bone realizing I had been defeated. I had no choice but to relinquish control, It was at this point I realized I couldn’t move the right side of my body.

David Lynch: Transcendental Meditation, Consciousness and Creativity

"He whose happiness is within, whose contentment is within, whose light is all within, that yogi, being one with brahman attains eternal freedom in pure consciousness"

--The Bhagavad Gita--

Below is a link to download David Lynch's Catching the Big Fish on Audio book. He discusses his experience with transcendental meditation which he began in July 1973 at the T.M center in LA.

"It seemed so familiar, but also so new and powerful... it takes you to an ocean of pure consciousness, pure knowingness, but it's familiar, it's you, and right away a sense of happiness emerges, not a goofball happiness, but a thick beauty"

 If you're interested in tapping into your inner artist and further unlocking certain elements of creativity you may be unaware of, then I suggest you download this little piece of golden insight.

                                                        http://www.mediafire.com/?yitwlflt0ha

(At 101 minutes he starts talking about the perspective of the tortured artist and says despite popular belief,  the torture and pain that many believe to be their bloodline to inspiration, in fact DOES NOT HELP CREATIVITY, ultimate consciousness does)

I'm reading this amazing book called 

Seven Arrows: Hyemeyohsts Storm

I scanned this from the beginning of the book because I thought it was so beautiful. So far the book delves into the lives of the plains people, rituals, medicine wheels etc. It's rad, I can't wait to find out more.