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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Random spiritual realization... who do you speak to when you pray?

I've never been on unemployment. I'm 26 years-old, and I've been working, for the most part, regularly since I was 16. I applied for disability once in 2009 after rolling my Honda Civic off the 170 fwy. I got it; and, I was speechless. At $400 a week, I was beyond ecstatic, I'd actually be able to pay my rent and continue my undergrad at a local university. Since then, I've graduated college, the economy has plummeted ever further, and I still haven't found a job outside of waitressing. I applied for unemployment two weeks ago, and today I received a letter about my benefits. They're for $63 a week. I was mortified, that will barely cover my car insurance. And then I remembered that I've had almost $0 for the last two months, and that this is HELP.

I look up at the ceiling and I'm sorry comes out of my mouth as if I'm talking to the god version I was introduced during Sunday mass in the Catholic Church around the corner from my childhood home. I quickly remembered the god I know is a part of me, inside me and consciousness reminds Look Inward. Speak inward. So I close my eyes and look inside and say I'm sorry for being ungrateful, thank you for this help. It's weird encountering your self engaging in old routines when your core beliefs have shifted far away from the ones you internalized in youth. I guess that only thing that comes from this is a reminder to be more aware of your actions, words and spiritual process.

Monday, June 11, 2012

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Saturday, March 17, 2012

The Chameleons - Second Skin(Audio)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

lazy girl's idea of making a mash up

Push play on the below video.

Now push play on the video below that.

TURN IT UP.
maybe rock out.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Russian Circles : Youngblood

Otis Rush: I`Cant Quit You Baby

Saturday, December 10, 2011

gemstones again, love the lil suckers

" In simple, easy to understand terms, the reason why crystals and gemstones make wonderful healing tools is because of what science calls its piezoelectric effects. You can see this effect in modern Quartz watches. Crystals and stones respond to the electricity that is coursing through our body, if the energy is unbalanced, the constant electrical vibrations of the stones will help to harmonize, balance, and regulate the flow of these energies. "

(from a metaphysical article posted on http://www.neatstuff.net/avalon/texts/Articles.html )

Sunday, November 27, 2011

ZIM - Omar Rodriguez Lopez & John Frusciante

poor Nico, sounds like creative rape to me...

I just saw this quote from Nico regarding the production process of Chelsea Girl and it makes me so effing mad, (yet thankful for the present day where technology can be learned/utilized by those who have the passion/drive/fearlessness to carry out their artistic endeavors without compromising for some two-bit middleman twat, gfy dick)

In retrospect, Nico said in 1981: "I still cannot listen to it, because everything I wanted for that record, they took it away. I asked for drums, they said no. I asked for more guitars, they said no. And I asked for simplicity, and they covered it in flutes! [...] They added strings, and— I didn't like them, but I could live with them. But the flute! The first time I heard the album, I cried and it was all because of the flute."^[13]

As per Wikipedia: Chelsea Girl is a traditional chamber-folk album, which influenced artists such as Leonard Cohen,^{[citation needed]} with strings and flute arrangements by producer Tom Wilson. Nico was not satisfied with the album and had little say in production matters.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

WOT GORiLLA? - 6 Double 5 3 2 1

EMO. I think it's a November thing.
haha I'm okay with it.

Buddha Quote

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

The Weeknd 'Coming Down' lyrics

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Miss Leigh, I think it'd be wise to take a breath in the waiting room...

one of these days very soon I’m going to be able to just go
to shows all the time and write about them and just do what
I want and IT IS GOING TO BE AWESOME.

Rad.
Totally cool.
Fucking Dope.

I can taste it.
Oh My God, so SOON.

Ugh right now though,
within the pressure of this breath
overestimation motivation
the weight is adding stress

recollect
I’m pulling the covers over my head
I have to hold back
& finish what I start
mold these pieces steady
otherwise I’ll crack
________________________________
Fugazi just happened to be playing as I was writing, and so I looked up the lyrics and found them rather Ironic— Only I’m not in the “Waiting Room”, I need to be— I just need to remember to be patient and enjoy things so I don’t forget how to BE HAPPY always in the place that I am ________*) I don’t want to do things 1/2assed and wait for tomorrow to feel more manageable, I can take my time I forgot that it’s me who chooses the pace of breath…..
_______________________________________________

I am a patient boy
I wait, I wait, I wait, I wait
My time is water down a drain

Everybody’s moving
Everybody’s moving
Everything is moving,
Moving, moving, moving

Please don’t leave me to remain
In the waiting room

I don’t want the news
(I cannot use it)
I don’t want the news
(I won’t live by it)

Sitting outside of town
Everybody’s always down
(Tell me why)

Because they can’t get up
(Ahhh… Come on and get up)
(Come on and get up)

But I won’t sit idly by
(Ahhh…)
I’m planning a big surprise
I’m gonna fight
For what I want to be

And I won’t make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Inside the waiting room

I don’t want the news
(I cannot use it)
I don’t want the news
(I won’t live by it)

Sitting outside of town
Everybody’s always down
(Tell me why)

Because they can’t get up
(Ahhh… Come on and get up)
Up from the waiting room

Sitting in the waiting room
(Ahhh…)
Sitting in the waiting room
(Ahhh…)
Sitting in the waiting room
(Ahhh…)
Sitting in the waiting room
(Ahhh…)
(Tell me why)
Because they can’t get up

Saturday, September 24, 2011

first smoothie recipe post

Since I got back from Maui in the beginning of September, I've become obsessed with smoothies = I have one every morning, and sometimes another in the afternoon! Today I outdid myself, really though, Jamba juice-- secure your profit margins because PorkChop smoothies blow your sorry excuses out of the water-- also, I think mine are healthier, and I don't have to wait in line or give anyone 5 dollars to press a button on a machine that I'm perfectly capable of handling myself. HA so anyways here it goes:

Lets call todays smoothie the... "Cacaomaca yaya"

-1 Frozen banana

-handfull (+) Frozen strawberries

-1/2 (-)cup of Trader Joe's Soy creamy (like ice cream)

-1/2 cup plain vanilla yogurt

- 1.5 Tbsp Cacao Powder (full of magnesium, called the Mayan Superfood)

-1.5 Tbsp Maca Powder (full of antioxidants, amino acids, called the Incan Superfood)

-handfull (-) Cacao Nibs

- (1+) Tbsp ground flax seed (digestive miracle worker!)

- A ton of Coconut water

-drizzle(+) of agave

THIS IS SO DELICIOUS
that is all

Saturday, September 17, 2011

School On Wheels--Volunteer & make a difference in someones life in as little as an hour a week

This is my friend Jessica Cervantes, I've been tutoring her since April and every time I see her I can't help but smile.

She is nine-years-old and her family went homeless about a year ago. Her and her sister Jasmine live in a foster home in the valley, they do not know where their 6 other siblings are.
I visit weekly to tutor her in school subjects, but more importantly it's just to have someone consistent in her life, seeing as she's the smartest 5th grader I know. At times last semester I'm embarrassed to say that her math skills surpassed mine on certain things, they were already doing algebra in 4th grade! I totally blanked but I think she's forgiven me since.

Anyways, the program is called School on Wheels and we could really use more volunteers. With unemployment the way it is, more and more people are losing their homes, it's not the lazy drug-addict or fresh out-of-the loony bin living in a box on the side of the road ( which so many people like to tell themselves so as to not feel bad about giving them $, which I'm not saying they should or should not, I've just heard that reasoning often throughout my life) the people living under the freeways and on skidrow are becoming more and more like you and I and Jessica's mom and dad.

So if you want to help the world in someway maybe this is for you? My reasoning was the only real way to make an effective change for the better is through the kids because they're still developing. Many of them are continually getting pulled out of school because their family's just can't keep it together. We are living in a new world, without an education these kids will turn out like their parents and the cycle will continue.

If you have any free time, even if it's only an hour a week, check out the program-- there are 56,000 homeless kids between Santa Barbara and the rest of Southern California (that they know of).

For more information:
http://www.schoolonwheels.org/
or if you have any questions you can e-mail me on here
or contact Yanira Rivas

yrivas@schoolonwheels.org

Regional Coordinator

School on Wheels, Inc

Sunday, September 11, 2011

LANA DEL REY-BLUE JEANS

BLUE JEANS
WHITE SHIRT
WALKED INTO THE ROOM U KNOW U MADE MY EYES BURN
IT WAS LIKE, JAMES DEAN- FOR SURE
U SO FRESH TO DEATH & SICK AS CA-CANCER
YOU WERE SORTA PUNK ROCK, I GREW UP ON HIP HOP
BUT U FIT ME BETER THAN MY FAVOURITE SWEATER- AND I KNOW
THAT LUV IS MEAN, AND LUV HURTS
BUT I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY WE MET IN DECEMBER- OH BABY!
*
I WILL LUV U TILL THE END OF TIME
I WOULD WAIT 1,000,000 YEARS
PROMISE U'LL REMEMBER THAT UR MINE
BABY CAN U SEE THROUGH THE TEARS
LUV U MORE
THAN THOSE BITCHES BEFORE
SAY U'LL REMEMBER -OH BABY- SAY U'LL REMEMBER
I WILL LUV U TILL THE END OF TIME
*
BIG DREAMS
GANGSTER
SAID U HAD O LEAVE TO START UR LIFE OVER
I WAS LIKE- "NO PLEASE" STAY HERE
WE DON'T NEED NO MONEY WE CAN MAKE IT ALL WORK
BUT HE HEADED OUT ON MONDAY, SAID HE'D COME HOME SUNDAY
I STAYED UP WAITIN, ANTICIPATIN AND PACIN BUT HE WAS
CHASING PAPER
CAUGHT UP IN THE GAME-THAT WAS THE LAST I HEARD
*
CHORUS
*
HE WENT OUT EVERY NIGHT
AND BABY THAT'S ALRIGHT
I TOLD U THAT NO MATTER WHAT U DID I'D BE BY YOUR SIDE
CAUSE IM A RIDE OR DIE
WHETHER U FAIL OR FLY
WELL SHIT @ LEAST U TRIED.
BUT WHEN U WALKED OUT THAT DOOR- A PIECE OF ME DIED
I TOLD U I WANTED MORE-BUT THAT NOT WHAT I HAD IN MIND
I JUST WANT IT LIKE BEFORE
WE WERE DANCIN ALL NIGHT
THEN THEY TOOK U AWAY-STOLE U OUT OF MY LIFE
U JUST NEED TO REMEMBER....
THAT I WILL LUV U TILL THE END OF TIME
i promise